Lucid Thoughts: Letting Go

Many have the perception that just because you said you moved on, means you actually did. Moving on or letting go isn’t always about a relationship. Many the times it has to deal with ones own self. It could be the way of handling things. Learning of your own faults, addressing them, and creating new ways of living. Other times it can be just how we choose to handle things, allowing emotions to hold us back from progressing with our lives. However way it has affected you, we all have had a moment where we had to find a way to let go.  

Acceptance is the key to letting go. Removing the shackles of uncertainty that plague us from day to day. When you let go of that which cannot be controlled. The veil of a confused perception will begin to lift. Your thoughts will begin to draw clarity. Allowing you to push forward even more that you could have ever imagined. 

So how do you know if you have truly accepted a situation, action, as being able to let go? When the very thought, mention or the sight in some cases, arise, finally have no power over you. When your thoughts are no longer clouded, and you can finally see the way out. Not only is the end near but the path to get there is so clear, it’s like you can run there. Weightless, free, living, and on the road to truly healing.

Letting go is a tricky dance of emotions, logic, and you’re inclined to not move forward because of the emotions that confuse you. Channeling the emotions to the change you need is no easy feat. I had to accept that someone was no longer going to be the person I wanted them to be. I had to accept that the love I craved from them to reciprocate to me was but a dream. The guide I waited for them to be, was never possible. The truth that they would never change. No matter how many attempts, at being hopeful I could be, it was null. A burden I carried for so long. Until the day I accepted that all those things would not be possible from said human. That very day, as much as it hurt, it was a cleansing pain, the weight of the world lifting off my shoulders.  My soul being able to breathe new life into my worn body of stress, emotions and pressure. I accepted that my mother would never be the mother I deserved in this lifetime. That acceptance, allowed me to finally move forward with my life as a whole. It freed me from having to prove to her that I could be someone she would be proud of. That my accomplishments in life would not come across as insignificant. That the person who should be there for all those moments, whether good or bad, would be there bearing nothing but unconditional love.  

You probably are thinking to yourself right now, damn he must hate her. That I do not. To harbor such feelings would then place me back into the realm of not having FULLY accepted her for who she is. Those feelings would only cause even more damage to myself in the end. I embraced all the feelings that come with letting go. That very night I slept like I had not slept ever before. The days after the world looked so different to me. Heck even I looked different to me. A moment that is clear in my mind til this day.

So as difficult as 2020 may have been for many, some may even say 2019 was their rough year. Either way just remember, acceptance will take you on the road to healing. Never stop trying. Failing is ok. Celebrate the small wins. No one will ever love you the way you love yourself. 2021 is the year of healing, that is what I manifest not only for myself, but for all those who take time to read this.

Lucid OmniJack